Dear Reader.
My name is Mackenzie. I'm a 15 years old girl from Melbourne Australia and my nationality consists of Scottish, English and Australian.
Ever since i was little i wanted to preform. When i was 5 to the age of 8 years old i would lay a blanket on my bedroom pretending it was a stage and set my teddies along the side of the blanket as my audience, i would play Spice Girls and Kylie Minogue on my CD player and say their songs were my own and sing them to my "audience"
During some years of primary school i got bullied. The first two times was physical hitting. The first time i got bullied was in prep. From my memory, i would be playing on the playground doing my own thing when a grade 5 would approach me and start to tease me and he would hurt me. He would come up to me at snack and lunch times and i would hide from him and i remember one day he was looking all over the playground for me, but he didn't find me.
The second time i got bullied was from a girl who was a year below me. I was in year 3 or 4 and in the mornings before school i would be playing on the big kids playground waiting for my friends to arrive. This girl would come up to me and she would talk to me normally but as she did that she would punch me or kick me. I would run up to my mum crying, begging her to take me home but i always ended up having to go back. Actually, i remember one day the girls Mum came up to me and talked to me about being mean to her daughter, when in actual fact her daughter was being mean to me.
The final time was in year 6 and it was more snickering behind my back. In my year level in was two grade 6 classes of 25 people. I had 4 friends and basically the rest of the year level didn't like me. Because i had a bit more weight on me compared to the other girls i was very insecure. I remember girls looking at me and laughing which made me feel horrible about myself. One day my best friend came up to me and said "I was walking down to then drink tapes with B****** and she asked me 'do you think Mackenzie is fat?' and i told her about how you're very self conscious about that" So from then on i knew that behind my back people were calling me fat.
That went on longer then i originally thought.
Starting High School i made new friends and even started to take guitar lessons which is what made me feel more comfortable with myself because i knew that i could do something that was really cool.
Year 8 is when i formed a new group of friends and started to try different things. The first thing i did was join the school choir. Because of me wanting to be a performer, this was a big deal for me because i got to sing every week, i got my first badge and i even attended a competition. Not only did i join choir but i also joined the school guitar ensemble where i got to play guitar with a group of people. Because of these clubs i had joined i got to preform at school music nights where everyone who is in a music group goes on stage and preforms what they have practiced to an audience.
This year (year 9) i am still playing guitar, preforming at music nights and still have my same group of friends and i have honestly learnt so much about myself such as i shouldn't care what people think of me, if i'm not popular and don't have the whole year level love me, that's okay. As long as i have my true friends that's all i'll ever need.
So my primary school time was pretty shit and my time in high school so far has been pretty fantastic.
Thanks for taking the time to read this.
2/9/14
