It's That Time Of Year Again...

EXAMS!!!

I'm just going to get straight into this because I don't have to beat around the bush.

This week I am starting my last lot of year 10 exams. I made a post last semester about how to study and prepare for your exams and, if i'm honest with you guys, I am defiantly not prepared for the subjects that I have this semester.
I have exams for
1: English
2: History
3: Science/ Physics
4: Commerce
5: Maths

The only subjects I'm not comfortable with is physics and history. Sure I've been studying for them the most but I'm still now good and physics because I can't remember any equations and I'm revising over events that I need to know for history but I'm not going very well at remembering. All that will have to do with my memory because I have a problem with remembering things.
I know that it will all work out and I'll probably just pass these exams (literally I'm no good at ANY of these subjects) and I shouldn't be worrying but I'm just scared I'm gonna fail another subject and I'll have to repeat year 10 because if you fail two subjects you fail the year at my school (I failed French) But I just gotta think positive and hope that I won't fail.
Wish me luck

Thanks for reading
Bye

The Book I Wish I Had Written

Hey guys

So as you can tell by the title (I seem to always say that) I guess you know what this is gonna be about.

I wish I could have written Girl Online - Zoe Sugg

The reason I wish that I had written that book was because it helped me in so many way like dealing with my anxiety and it helped me write on this blog and gave me an idea of what I wanted to do.

Girl Online to me feels like much more than a book.

It's my BIBLE.

I swear whenever something happens in my life I just think "What would Penny Porter do right now?" and I'm sure that others around the world have done that as well.

This book was beautifully written and paints a beautiful picture in your mind of what was happening and one day I hope I will be able to have enough talent to be able to write like Zoe did.

Not a long blog post but I haven't written in a while and I was thinking of Girl Online and thought I would write this down.

I've bought Girl Online: On Tour the other day so as soon as I've finished reading Maze Runner I will be telling you all about it and how much I loved it (I already know I'm gonna love it)

Thank you for reading 

Bye

I'm Back!

Hey Everyone!

I'm so sorry that I haven't posted in over a month! I mean that's pretty bad seeings as I love writing on this blog.

The reason I haven't written is because I've just had no idea what to write and every time I sat down to write something, nothing came out.

So now what I am going to do is give you an update on everything that has happened while I've been gone.

Because I live in Melbourne, I went and saw 5 Seconds of Summer perform on Sunrise and I'll go into more detail about that in it's own post.

There has been this guy that has kind of flirting with me and I don't think he gets the idea that I have friend zoned him. I didn't friend zone him because I wanted to be a bitch. I did it because I don't see him that way. He has been putting his arm around me DAILY and finding a way to compliment me, which I don't mind but eh. Honestly I have no idea if he likes me or not but all my friends are saying that he does but I seriously don't know.

What do you guys think about that? Do you think that he could possibly like me or not? Please tell me what you think.

I still have no idea what has happened recently so I'm gonna leave it there and I'll write a new blog post on seeing 5SOS at Sunrise VERY SOON!!!

Thanks for reading

Bye!

The Joy of Being Sick

Hey Guys

If you can't tell by the title of this post 

I'M SICK!!

Yep and I have been for the past 2 weeks and I can tell you that I have been living in hell for those 2 weeks. My days have consisted of shivering, coughing, sneezing, blowing my nose so much that I've gone through 3 tissue boxes and a roll of toilet paper (because we ran out of tissues), and trying different tablets to make me feel better 

 I've tried the blue Streptils first to numb my throat because it felt like I was swallowing knifes. I had one and it tasted like mouth wash which wasn't bad but it did not help at all. It took some pain away but it came back straight away.

In the middle of the night I had the Honey and Lemon Strepsils to sooth it and it didn't do anything either! I was just left with a horrible taste in my mouth with no result. 

It's funny because that day my friend told me not to try them because they don't work and I didn't believe her because I thought that everyone was different and that I would react different but NOPE. They just didn't work at all.

After that I just stuck to having panadol in the mornings, afternoons and nights and in-between that I was stuck in bed nearly coughing up my lungs while I binge watched the Brady Bunch for the whole week and a bit.

I ended up going to the doctor and she put me on anti biotic's and gave me a doctors certificate for the rest of the week but then I had to go back the next week to get another certificate and she gave me a few more days off so I had two weeks off school 

IMPORTANT THINGS YOU NEED TO KNOW WHILE SICK!!

1) Make sure you have all the DVD's you want to watch in your room so you don't have to keep leaving to get new ones, just make sure you have a bunch in your room.

2) Have a bottle of water or orange juice rather than a cup because they'll last a lot longer and, again, you won't have to keep getting up and leaving the room.

3) Have tissues and a bin next to your bed because it just makes life a whole lot easier

4) Make sure you email your teachers for any work that you've missed out on, if you're still in school. Trust me on this because it will become a giant pain in the ass when you get back to school having to catch up on so much work.

5) Keep hydrated and rest as much as you can. It will help you get over your sickness quicker

I'm gonna stop here because I can't think or concentrate on anything right now because I just found out I'm having problems with my subjects for next year and I'm still sick

Thanks for reading

Bye!

A Letter to my Mum

Dear mum

I don't know when I'll read this to you.

It might be tomorrow, in a month, in a year, or in a decade.

But this is what I want you to know.

I have loved you every single day and nothing has changed how I feel about you and nothing ever will. I appreciate everything you do for us, like how you work two jobs so you could give us the things that we wanted.

You are my best friend and the best days I have are spent with you, even if we're doing nothing all day on the couch or just watching T.V those are the happiest memories for me. I can tell you anything and you will never judge me and you always find a way to make everything better and you are always on my side even when I'm wrong.

I know I tell you everyday but I just want you to know how much I love you and appreciate you and I always want you to be in my life because you mean the world to me and I don't know what I would do without you. 

You have morphed me into the person I am today and you've taught me so much in life, like how if I make a stupid mistake you'll tell me that it was something no one could tell me about it was just something I just have to learn for myself and knowing that has helped me so much.

I know that when I was younger you used to tell me that you never thought you were a good parent and I mean it when I say that you were the best mum anyone could ask for and I'm so grateful that you are mine because no one is as cool as you.

You weren't a regular mum and you know you weren't. At heart you were still 16 and you could relate to everything I was going through and when it came to my parties you knew what would be fun and what everyone would like and, for some reason, I always doubted it when I shouldn't have because it was always the best time.

I would like to say thank you for everything you have done for our family and know that we all love you incredibly and that we would be lost without you 

Updating You

Hi Mackenzie

I haven't talked to you in a while. Actually quite a long time so I thought that I should probably update you on everything that has happened recently, even though we've already lived through it but I'll tell you again anyway in case you forget.

So I'm not doing guitar lessons at school any more! remember how much you hated it there? well now I'm getting lessons at Scarlett Music my favourite music shop and I have to coolest teacher ever! Chris is really cool and he actually know's what he's doing and he teaches me things that I'll actually need to know, unlike the other teacher where all she cared about was learning songs for guitar ensemble. Honestly I don't even know if I want to do it any more. The ensemble is getting full of year 7's who don't really know what they're doing cause they just started learning and everyone else are year 10's I'm friends with and I don't know it's like I want to keep doing it to perform at music nights but I just hate doing the rehearsals now, I used to love it but now it's kind of feeling like a chore rather then something I'm doing for fun. You'll know what I'll do but right now I have no idea

SUBJECTS NEXT YEAR!!
Alright so, I picked my subjects for next year and I'm really excited!
I chose to do Theatre Studies, Drama and VET Music.
I've done VET Music since year 9 and I did Drama this year and I've been loving it. I'm really excited for Theatre Studies even though it will involve quite a bit of research (I think) but there will still be performing on stage which will be so fun!
I'm mainly excited because they're fun subjects and it's what I'm interested in.

Moving on to another subject is about a boy. I think you know who I'm talking about?
He's been messaging me and he told me that we should hang out and get to know each other more and I'm kinda freaked about it because I don't look at him any other way then a friend and I'm scared that one day he might ask me out and I'll have to let him down because I don't want to ruin things between us.
I will admit though he gives one of the best hugs I've ever had, like it's not a half hug or like he's doing it because he has too, he puts feeling into it and he wraps his arms around you which feels nice. So I'll admit that I like his hugs a lot but that's it.

Going back to the music aspect of things, I started getting singing lessons this term!
It's been really good, so far she's taught me how to breathe properly which I picked up straight away without any practice and I've got a good range so I can learn any song I want to because I can go high and low. I've started learning a song which is "Break The Distance" by Ashton Edminster and it is going fantastic. I'm still not confident but she is constantly telling that I have a beautiful voice and I shouldn't be embarrassed about it and that I need to build my confidence, which is true because I am quite quiet when I sing. I can't even sing in front of my family or best friends and usually they're the first people to hear me with these types of things but not with singing.
I'll get there one day though and I'm sure you'll know that because you would've already done it.
I hope your music is going good. I know how important it is right now and that you want to go places with it so I'm wishing you all the best with it.

On that note I think I should wrap this post up and tell you more later on and not give you an overload of information that you've already been though.
Hopefully you are enjoying looking back at these memories because that's the purpose of this whole thing, so you can look at it and remember things that happened in your teenage years and get some feeling from it.

Thank you for reading
See you later 

Year 10 Formal

Hello Everyone

Let's just start this post with some pictures from the night

This night happened on Friday the 31st of July 2015.

Preparing for this event started with getting my hair and make up done. I went to my hairdressers house where there she did both hair and make up. She did a fantastic job on my make up and then asked me if I was going to get a spray tan and I said no because I didn't plan on actually getting one. She asked if I would like one to which I agreed to. I came out of her bathroom and when my dad saw me he was like "oh my gosh" because I have never ever been tan before to it was my first time actually having colour. After this we get my hair done and I was in love with it! It reminded me of some classic Hollywood movie star because it was curled and worn to one side while I had some tucked behind my ear.

I then went home and waited for a little while before we actually had to leave and when the time came closer to actually leaving I put my dress on and got some photos with my parents and then left at 6:00 because I had to get there by 6;15 to get photos with my friends but the event didn't actually start until 6:30.

We arrived at the venue and I stayed in the car looking for my friends so that I could go straight to them. Right when I thought I saw them I went to open my car door when my best friend Bella came up to the window and gave me the creepiest look but I was so excited to see her and my other friend (The guy you see wearing blue)

6:30 comes around and we walk inside, which we were thankful for because it was absolutely freezing, and wait until it gets to 7:00 so we can be seated.

We then get seated and everyone is sitting down while my group were running around the place like headless chooks because we couldn't find our table, then one of the workers came up to me and said we were over in the corner. I thanked him and head over but we still couldn't find the table so we kept looking until we finally found it and it was where the guy showed us.

1st thing that happened was we got our entree's which were either chicken or lasagne. I had the chicken and it was amazing!

After eating we got up and started dancing. The DJ got really into the music but the music wasn't really anything you could sing a long to and it all had almost the same beat the whole time but it was still really good. We went over the photo booth and got group photo's done.

After dancing and photos we had our dinner which was either chicken parma with potato mash or lamb with potato mash. I got given the lamb which wasn't really the best because it was very plain and quite moist but the potato mash wasn't too bad.

After eating we got up and started dancing again but for longer this time and you could see that everyone else was really getting into the dancing and the music. There was a lot of jumping and random dance moves which was amazing and we got more photos done and then went and had dessert.

When we had dessert everyone on my table got a plate of something except for me and I was kinda like "um, ok" so I watched everyone else eat or other people dancing and I was sitting there like "I really want some of that chocolate" but it was probably best that I didn't have it.

Once everyone else was finished we got back up and started dancing and getting pictures taken again. This time a lot of people were acting strange. After dinner we all knew that people were drinking but now they were wasted. One girl skidded across the floor and hit her head into my leg and I asked her if she was okay because it was pretty hard she hit be but she was then gathered by her friends and she was giggling! Like ok?

And the way a lot of people were dancing was just obvious that they had alcohol in their system.

At the end of the night we took a whole year level photo which turned out really good.

We finished the night with a few more songs and then went back to our seats or just scattered around talking to our other friends while we waited to get picked up.

My mum had fallen asleep and didn't realise the time so Bella took me home and we spent the car ride talking about the night and everything that had happened.

I arrived home and thanked her and her step dad for dropping me home. I walked into the house and saw my mum on the couch waiting up for me so I sat down next to her and kicked off my shoes because my feet felt like they were gonna fall off because I wore heels all night and then told mum about the night and what happened which she was happy.

I later had a shower to wash all the sweat, tan and make up off and got into my pajama's then got into bed but didn't sleep for another hour.

So that is everything that happened on the day of formal!

It was a really fun day, I don't know if what I wrote really did it justice but trust me when I say it was a night that I am never going to forget.

Thank you for reading

Bye