Worrying about life?

Hey Mackenzie

I know i've probably got your life already sorted out and everything but right now i'm kind of stressing.

I'm gonna be 16 soon and i don't have a job, i mean, is that bad? Mum won't let me get one because i already have enough trouble keeping up with school work and homework and other things but how will i save up money for later on? What about when it comes time for me wanting to travel, i won't have money. But i'm sure it'll get all figured out later but what if it doesn't?

For some odd reason i've been looking at jobs at Buzzfeed. There's a few good ones that i might be interested in in the future but i need a lot of skill. For example Associate Photo Editor, I need 3-4 years experience in it! Jesus like i don't know when it comes to experience in Jobs it just takes so long to do, i get the point of it but i don't know. I would be interested in working at Buzzfeed.

I've come to terms with boys as well. Although i have no experience with them...

It's good to have a boyfriend but do we really need them when it comes to later on in life?

Sure if you want to have kids then you'll need a husband for that but there's so much in this world that I want to see and i'm scared that maybe a boyfriend would hold me back from that. When i'm in my early 20's i don't want to settle down and have kids yet, i'd still be so young and have so much to live for like travel around the world, try new things focus on what i want for myself. When i'm a little older i'll settle down and have kids.

But when my kids leave home and learn to have a life of their own i want to get back out into the world, i never want to loose my youth. I may not be as young as i used to be but i'm still doing something with my life.

I don't want to die with any regrets because that would just mean i've died sad, i'd rather die young and accomplished everything in life rather than living a long life without doing anything i wanted to do.

But with that being said i do want to live a long life but have done everything i wanted to do.

Maybe i should just stop worrying and just go with the flow and see where life takes me. Anyway i am only 15, what do i know about life when i've hardly experienced it?

Thanks for taking your time to read this.