A Message to Shane Dawson

Dear Shane

You have been in my life since 2012

I may not have been there from the very beginning, but I have been here for a few years.

Everyday I come home from school and watch your videos to laugh with you and smile with you and you put me in such a better mood.

You have been there for me when nobody else was.

The days where I would lock myself in my room and just cry because I didn't know what to do with myself, I knew that you would be there to pick me up at the end of the day to tell me that you love me and with that I am eternally grateful for you.

Today I watched your coming out video.

It breaks my heart to see you cry and to be so upset at the fact that you felt trapped and as if you didn't know what to do, turning to your eating disorder and going to therapy it made me see how much you were going through and I had no idea.

I want you to know that myself and millions of other people around the world are going to stand by your side every step of the way and love and support you like you have done for us.

In time I know that you will become happier.

I want you to ignore everyone who is being an asshole and giving you shit because you are bisexual because there is nothing wrong with it, you are who you are and the only persons opinion that matters in your life is your own. So DO NOT let someone else's words beat you down because you are better then them.

Like I said earlier, I will forever stand by your side and give you unconditional love and support through thick and thin because I know that you would do the same for me.

I love you Shane

Thank you for reading

Bye

Boy/ Family Issues

Hey

This post is gonna be more personal and it made me learn a really good lesson and i really hope you get something out of it because i don't want anyone to go through anything like this.

For the past 2 months I have been talking to this guy that was my brothers friend. He was really nice and sweet and funny and we had a fake relationship and would talk to each other like we were in a relationship, he would tell me things about himself and his family and I told him a few things but not everything. 

I started to trust him more and i started to really like him.

Soon my brother wasn't friends with him anymore and would always tell me to stop talking to him and get rid of him from your life and i would always just reply with a no because I didn't want to stop talking to him because I liked him. I continued to talk to him for another month.

One night I decided to ask him to hang out in the city with me, it wasn't a date it was more like two friends just hanging out, to which he accepted and we planned a day and time. I never told my brother I was hanging out with him because he would get mad at me and try to get me to stay home.

We then met up at the train station and it was the first time we had ever hung out like it was just the two of us and I couldn't be happier. When we got onto the train he was asking me about my brother and how he was. I told him that he goes on morning walks and that he see's this girl and says hello to her and that it was really sweet. I took that as nothing and we just continued our day and it was really fun. We walked around the city and we went into a music store that i've been dying to go to for ages. The day soon came to and end and we got back on the train and went home. Once he had left and I started to walk home and I got a message from my brother "Nice to see you've been talking shit about me" he said. I was completely confused and had no idea what he was talking about so i asked him. He told me that I had told the guy that he was stalking this girl to which I replied saying that, that wasn't what I said.

Immediately i messaged the guy and asked him if he had talked to my brother and he said that he hadn't and he asked why, I told him that my brother is extremely mad at me. Then the guy told me that he had messaged his best friend (who is also friends with my brother) about what I said. 

I told him to stop talking to me until i was ready to talk to him.

I called my mum and told her everything and i couldn't go home because i was scared that he was gonna yell at me so I walked around to my cousins place and told her everything that happened because i'm close with her.

Later i went home and he didn't yell at me. He didn't do anything. He's not talking to me. All because this guy twisted my words and told my brother something different to what i said.

He continues to not talk to me which breaks my heart and i didn't know what to do.

I slept over at my friends house the next night and had a lot of fun. The next day when mum came to pick me up, on the way home she said to me "This guy had messaged your brother and said 'I just fucked a girl named ___" After my mum told me this I was extremely mad and instantly I blocked him on everything I had him on because i didn't want anything to do with him.

It's 4 days after everything and my brother is still not talking to me. I feel sad and angry because of everything that has happened.

MORAL OF THE STORY

If you have a guy that you are talking to and someone in your family tells you to get rid of him, do it. I know it'll be hard to but please you just have to do it because something like this could possibly happen. I was used and played just for this guy to get back at my brother. Do not let anyone get in-between you and your family because no one is more important than them.

I hope at least one person got something out of this

Please never let this happen.

Thank you for reading

Bye 

Exam Stress

Hey Guys!

This week I am sitting exams and I am going to tell you a few things that I wish I had done before they started.

1) Study: I know this is common sense and it's something you should instantly do, but if you're like me you will hate studying.

A few ways to do it are to have flashcards ready and go through them with a friend. While they ask you a question you can answer it as a way to memorise what you will need to know.

2) Do as much as you can: This goes along with studying, don't cram it all in to the night before, Do it over a cause of a few weeks and just do what you can do, you'll find you'll be less stressed and possibly get better scores.

3) Keep your area organised: Whether you are studying on your bed or on a desk or on your kitchen table, it is important to keep the area organised and think to yourself do you have enough light? Is there too much stuff on the table? other things that go along. Clutter may lead to you being stressed.

4) Don't take study periods for granted: If your school is run the same way, during exam week you'll have some normal classes before your exam and they will allow you to study. DO NOT MUCK AROUND!!! This class is very important and you may want to just talk to your friends or play on your laptop but trust me you're only ruining it for yourself and your friend. If you use your time efficiently you will get a much better score then you would've if you didn't study

5) Read, speak, write: I know this helped me to remember my monologue and I'm sure it'll help you to remember your notes you need.
Read your notes 10 times
Say your notes 10 times
Write your notes 2 times
This is a good way to really stick the information into your brain.

6) Create a playlist: If you find you work better with music make a playlist with relaxing music, kind of stuff that has piano and is slow. The music doesn't need to have words but it'll help you be relaxed and more at ease

7) Sleep: You may get to a point where you think it is necessary to pull an all nighter. It's not worth it. Sleep is as important as food, it's what you need to get through the day. If you do feel like you need to stay up all night and study, don't do it, just go to sleep, when you're asleep your brain will be processing what you had just learnt.

8) Write a story: This may sound silly but write a short story about your study topic
For example I'm studying the origins of English. I may write a story about the evolution of the language in a fairytale form. Whatever you are learning you can write a story is whatever way you find appealing.

These were just a few ideas for you in-case you were struggling to remember things or find a good method. I hope I helped you in some way and PLEASE leave comments for any ideas that you may have because someone may find that tactic better

Thanks for reading 

You Silly Turnip

Hey guys!

Okay so, have a seat cause it's story time.

At the start of the year I made up these cards with "you silly turnip" written on them with a picture of a turnip with a face on them and my friend and I would go around the building and put them in peoples lockers. I put a card in the lockers around me because I wanted to see what their reaction would be. I never really got to see a reaction. But I did today.

Today in school I was grabbing my lunch from my locker and the semi popular boys next to my locker were jokingly bagging their friend and he was saying "You know what (blank name) is?" the other guys says "I don't know, what?" and the guy responds with "He's a silly turnip"

Straight away I called my friend over and told her about it and we thought it was just hilarious so tonight I'm making up more 'you silly turnip' cards so we can put more around the year level.

Thank you for reading and I hope someone got some inspiration for doing something for their year level.

Bye!

Drama Monologue (Ferris Bueller's Day Off)

Hey Guys!

So I remembered that I was gonna update you guys on how I'm going on my drama monologue.

So far I have Memorised my script for Ferris Bueller but now all I have to do is figure out how I'm going to preform it and how I'm going to say everything.

Do you guys have any ideas? 

I'm doing the opening scene where he just made his parents believe he was sick and he's saying what a good way to trick parents are and how he had a test on European socialism.

I have a rough idea of what I want to do but I want someone else's thoughts of how I should preform it, in case someone is a big fan of the movie.

Thanks for reading guys!

I need to get back to doing school work 

Starting Monologues

Starting Monologues in class

So today in drama we are starting Monologues (if you couldn't already tell) and we have a choice between 31 different ones from different movies. I narrowed down my choices to three options 

1: Tangina - Poltergeist

2: Dumbledore - Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

3: Ferris Bueller - Ferris Buellers Day Off

So I have decided to do the male role which is Ferris Bueller.

I have no idea how I am going to go for this because we have to perform it in front of the class and it's going to be our exam. I'm excited because I love to perform but I'm nervous because I'll be  playing a male role and I'm a girl, that and I've never performed by myself in front of this class before, it's always been with other people in the class.

I'll keep you posted about how it's going!

Demon Teachers

Hey Guys

Once again I am supposed to be doing class work and listening to my teacher but this post popped into my head and I had to write it.

I'm in English at the moment and it's the last day of school (thank god) and I can honestly say that my English teacher is probably the worst teacher I could have ever had.

For example: She makes us read at the start of the lesson for 15 minutes and talks through it for 10 minutes.

Someone in class will be doing absolutely nothing (like what just happened now) and she will tell them off! like why? what's the point?

Something else as well is that we were given an essay and we only had one lesson the prepare for it, like writing down notes and getting information. FOR AN 800 WORD ESSAY, she then realised that she didn't give the class enough time so now we have to do it next term. Lucky.

All term we've been learning about the origins of English and I know she has to teach it to us, it's not her choice. But she could at least make it fun in some way but instead she drags it on and she just doesn't know when to stop talking. 

Going back to picking on the students, a few of my friends have wanted to leave the school because of her, my teacher just picks on them so much and she favours others and that is not fair at all. She doesn't even let us open the blinds because it's a "distraction"

AND RIGHT NOW SHE JUST TOLD SOMEONE THEIR OPINION WAS WRONG!!!

The student says in her life time she doesn't think language has changed. Fair enough that is her opinion, but my teacher just said "that's wrong and you know it is, you know very well that it has changed" Like let the girl write about her opinion and not yours.

Bloody Catholic school always trying to force their beliefs down our throats.

My school is a good school but I'm sick of getting beliefs forced upon me, just stop we're sick of it.

And I'm sure other students around the world will agree with me

So in summary my English teacher is a demon on earth. Tell me in the comments if you have any bad teachers and what makes them a bad teacher.

Thanks for reading 

Bye!